So I cheated, get over it. Yesterday when I woke at 8:30 the first word out of my mouth was "fuck". I find that the first curse of the day is the strongest. It's genuine and flavors the day. It's also necessary when you should be in front of the school in your uniform at 8:30. Without breakfast or the needed shower I boarded the bus to river clean-up duties.
The trip went smoothly. The hardest part was paddling; we collected less than a garbage bag worth. At lunchbreak I skipped stones to relaease a little energy. Over my shoulder a news camera was trained on me, so I left. Unfortunately, as the media representative in my group, I later had to talk to the same camera. I didnt see the report but I can imagine the expert splicing of rocks shipping across the pond over my tacky Martha Stewart philosophy. "it's a good thing!"
Last night I learned more about my good friends. Truth or dare turned into deeper questions like "how do you think the world will end" "what deadly win would you be". I'm wrath. I recently had a fighting dream; this time I won. All my punches landed instead of flowing through water. I decided this means I'm gaining conviction, a necessary precursor to wrath. I can't even trace the line between wrath and conviction... Is wrath overbearing or unjust? Is conviction lacking the anger in wrath? Is wrath synonymous with anger, and what more is there?
I've been studying tarot again. The looks I get are either awe or disgust. "read me!" my team said, but maybe they don't understand how it works. It's not magic, it's just very intense concentration coupled with self-analysis. I think I'll read myself first.
Left leg: life is miserable
Right leg: what?
Left leg: you heard me. What are we even doing here?
Right leg: good hard work. What could be so bad? I'm completely sunburned and I'm still happy.
Left leg: well you don't have seven bug bites or bruises all down your face.
Right leg: how did that happen?
Left leg: I'm the snare! You're just a crash cymbol! Have you even heard dragonforce?
Right leg: I don't have ears. You're being irrational; don't you feel that dull satisfying ache?
Left leg: yeah I feel it in my blue and red speckled face!
Right leg: whatever. You win.
Left leg: what a copout.
Right leg: well I'm tired and slighly apathetic.
Left leg: see you at PT in the morning.
and finally...
15 years ago
3 comments:
I just had my first Tarot reading ever.A phoenix emerging from the flames came up three different times. I asked about whether my leaning away from education and towards advocacy would continue and I got a card with an intensely-coupled pair (lesbians, but I think that's beside the point: all of the characters on all of the cards were female)...
Oh, and my greatest challenge?
FAMILY!
LOL :)
You have got to work on your typos, unless you are going to make me proof read all your blogs like I did your papers.
Why can I proof read well and not express myself properly? HMMMM
You could look at getting less than one bag of trash as a good sign for humanity.
Do your legs not talk to each other during the night?
We all miss you.
Having a very nice time up here. The weather has been great - not too hot, nice breezes, etc.
Mom & I got into the city yesterday - had a great meal at a restaurant we'd never been to before & then got to the theater to see August: Osage County, which took both a Tony and a Pulitzer Prize for its author.
Mom is going out fishing tomorrow - if you get a chance, give her a call for her birthday - at this point every birthday she has is a special one.
Love you -
Dad
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