Over the next nine months I'll be following the stages of this pregnant woman's life. It's like I'M pregnant.
Anyway, I'm halfway done in New Orleans, and the time has been flying past. I've fallen into this goofy routine which involves a lot of real time strategy games in the computer lab, listening to music, and on the whole stepping out of the AmeriCorps picture for a while. I had a nice conversation with my team leader where he expressed exactly what I was feeling. "It's not just that we live and work with the same people for 10 months, but for those ten months you also can't be with anyone else."
He told me more growing comes in the first month after AmeriCorps than in the full program. You're changing a lot now, he told me, in ways you don't even realize, and when you get out of this program, it's all going to hit you. I'm sure he's right.
So since I know this is going by so fast, I've been planning,like you ALWAYS tell us about! Please no more revised plans for the future!
...Well, OK mr. italics. I won't lay it all out for you. And this is the way I've started to think about things. I don't NEED to lay anything out. My Dad once talked to me about the security blanket, and the planning before. I had told him that for once I just want to not know where I'm going or what I'm going to do. Let's just say I'm making plans for next September, but in between May and August I think I'll let myself go where my own legs take me; trust myself to find a way.
It's liberating. Similar to the time I sat back and said, I don't NEED to have kids to make me happy, and hell, I might not even want them when that time rolls around. Now I'm not saying I wouldn't want kids, but that's not something I need to think about right now.
A computer functions piece by piece, but the way we see it, there's a streaming line of data running between myself and the computer. Really it's cutting all those things down into packets and saving them for when it really needs to use them. When a video game is being rendered by the console, the pixels of the far away sky don't load, the sky just has a hazy sometimes blocky texture, but those pixels right in front of your face are clear cut and real. When you walk around the rendered building full of shaded textured bricks, the same bricks will materialize on the other side when just a moment ago they didn't even exist in your perceived world.
And that's the way I'm going to start doing things.
Your question of the day:
Have you seen the Lady Killers? Did you like it?
Wait, are you talking about that movie with Tom Hanks where he's got that really silly mustache?
Yeah, The Lady Killers! It's got Marlon Waynes, and they're digging under that old lady's house to get to the bank.
I don't think many people saw that movie.
And the people who did see it, they didn't like it that much
Woah, are you guys talking about the Lady Killers?
Yeah! That one where Tom Hanks has that stupid facial hair...
Castaway?
No, not that one... He speaks with a strange accent in this one.
Road to Perdition?
No, I think it was something about murdering women, but that didn't make sense to me, because they were just trying to rob a bank or something...
The Lady Killers!
Yeah! It's not that long you know, only about 104 minutes, so it's probably not that good.
I heard some people saw it in the theater and they said "Fuck! I should have rented this!"
< / Ridiculousness >
PS Happy Mustachuary!
1 comment:
I have not heard of this Lady Killers... but now I am intrigued. Mustachios always make movies (and life) better (and creepier).
Have you watched Stella (the short lived comedy central show with michael ian black, micheal showalter, and david wain)? Because you should. It is the perfection of creepy funny.
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